It is some times amazing to me , that we can learn so much but no so little in are own quest of learning and perfecting our techniques in the art of aikido.It is very nice to have a technique develope and blend with your uke to the point of not having to use very little energy. The technique is just nice and smooth and clean.
Just keep moving.
Aikido training when I feel deeply upset is a challenge. I accept. I have the disease of alcoholism. Some mornings I wake up feeling fine. Other times I wake up to a voice in my head telling me I am a terrible person and not worthy of being alive. No matter which way I wake up, I have a set practice that I do, no matter how I feel or what my brain has to say. Yesterday we heard from a family member that he was very disappointed in us and was choosing not to be in a relationship with Ron and me. I felt very sad and frustrated because I know that saying or doing anything will not change another person. I slept poorly as my mind poured over all my wrong doings over many years. I felt heavy and discouraged this morning. I prayed as I do every morning. I asked for help, then got up and acted like a woman who has asked for help. I found one aikido thought: keep moving. I got up, got dressed, did my bathroom stuff, and went upstairs to see how Ron was doing. I listened while he talke
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