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no classes this weekend

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feels good and like something is missing. I like a couple of days off so I miss it and I hate a couple of days off cause I miss it.

Kai coming to class

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opened my heart in a new way. I loved seeing him feel the joy of Aikido for the first time. He had a great time. Thanks everyone, for sharing your experience with Kai.

Talking

Today I had an opportunity to say a few words at the end of the seminar and now I can't remember what I said. :-) I do know that I found myself feeling frustrated with my inability to communicate clearly. I often have the experience of speaking to a group about something and afterward knowing that what I managed to say was not nearly adequate enough to express what I wanted to say. It's interesting to me that verbal communication seems so clumsy sometimes in terms of making the connection with people in the same way that I experience on the mat nonverbally. I do experience connection in conversation, one to one. Speaking to a group however, is not easy. I use that occasion to practice keeping one point. That includes letting go of self judgement. Finding the appropriate ideas and words to express myself clearly, is challenging. Self consciousness, nerves, whatever, pop up. And that just freezes me up and makes access to thoughts difficult. It's definitely a good practice