Sunday, March 11, 2012

Vinnie's moment


My youngest daughter will soon be giving birth to my youngest grandson. I am practicing being in the now. In class this morning we were extending ki with unbendable arm from kosa katate tori so uke lost balance very easily.  

Taking my mind out of the now to imagine snuggling with little Vinnie distracts me from this day. Vinnie will be here soon enough. In the meantime Shannon and I have been enjoying pedicures every two weeks to celebrate his preparation and her growing inability to reach her toes.


My mind can run to good and bad imaginings around Vinnie’s birth…both take my balance easily. I need to stay in this moment on this day.
When Vinnie arrives it will be another moment. 

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Dead tree wins





I practice my jo strikes on this dead tree when I walk in the mornings. My tree is helping me develop power. I can tell when I hit with my whole body and when I just use my arms. It feels definitely better when I use my whole body. When I hit with just my arms…the tree wins. ;o) My arms absorb the shock and my hands vibrate with pain. When I use my whole body I don’t feel anything but connectedness. With a dead tree…how about that?

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

seeing and hearing and feeling




Have uke push as hard as they can on your shoulder…roll your shoulders forward slightly as you keep one point…relax into uke’s space turning and maintaining connection  as uke loses her balance.

When skiing, keep focus on the center…one slips much less that way…relax and enjoy the glide.  

The geese were unseen yet very much heard….I scanned the whole sky for them…it sounded like there was a least a thousand.

Why does the rolling of the shoulder change the relationship with uke? Why could I not see the geese? I know both are there because I can hear and feel the evidence. Sometimes it is best not to see clearly. The wonder slips in unfettered by thought and judgement.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Again!




In my training and my life I work hard at minding my own business. I am not always successful.

 When I cross over on to another person’s side of the street I become uncomfortable and agitated.

When I am uke my job is to follow logically and resist or rest if I am allowed to. When I am nage my job is to lead, blend and let. If when I am uke I think I know what nage should be doing I have ceased doing my job. If when nage I have judgment about my uke I have become distracted from my job because I have become judgmental. Being centered has nothing to do with being judgmental or thinking at all…being centered has nothing to do with the mind.

There are so many distractions from just being myself, from being centered, from being the best uke or nage I can be at the moment. I can be distracted by thinking that someone is right and someone is wrong, that uke is stiff or nage is not relaxed. I think sometimes that I can help another by saying something. I think that if I just say something right perhaps I can shift something in some way. But aren’t I just trying to do the same thing I am hoping to correct?

Back to my own path. Again. Back with compassion for myself and maybe a little for others, too.

Monday, March 5, 2012


I got sliding snowshoes for Jesus’ birthday. We have had about 3 inches of snow since October. Today I was out on my skis on about a half inch of granulated ice that was quite slippery. The sun was setting and a 3 quarter moon had already risen giving the world a soft glow. The air was cold but I quickly shed my hood as I scattered around the yard mostly keeping my balance. I have never taken lessons so my skiing is not too graceful yet. My Aikido training helps me stay centered and keep my weight off my feet. When I let go of positive mind….when I think about falling, sure enough there I go.  Good that I know how to fall and good that I prayed and the universe helped me get up. Good that I can laugh at myself and be out in the woods on my new skis at 54 years young.