Wednesday, January 27, 2010

guess what?

i get to pay attention again. be in the moment again. that is the secret. again and again.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

ron made a suggestion

last night...

he is my teacher after all

my ego rose up to protest

we talked a bit more

by bedtime i thought it was a good idea....

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

river of ki,

sea of ki,

in the flow,

turn you boat around and go with the current,

keep moving,

relax against the rocks,

brick hits velvet curtan and is enveloped,

extension of feeling to greet and welcome,

river of ki,

sea of ki.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

learning frustration

Changing in time and allowing your self to over come frustration on the mat with techniques that you have done in the past and now they are some what strange and foreign to you , It is all in part of ones self development or refinement . It is like polishing a piece of metal it will eventually yield a very bright and shine product.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

All That is Required

Enter and turn is all that is required
Even if I don't know what comes next.
The result will be whatever it is
It is that moment of blending
The fit of uke and nage that matters

Sometimes in aikido (and in life) I think I have to know the outcome. I try to impose my will and make uke do what I think they are supposed to. When that has happened to me as uke it feels uncomfortable, forced. The moment of "aikido" is lost and it becomes more martial than art, even if it is both. When those moments arise I know I am being offered a gift. A chance to experience freedom from preconceived notions of endings. The end result of the throw or pin is just the last part of something greater and bigger than my or uke's actions. It is the fit, the coming together of our energies that matters . I only need to show up, to have and open mind, to let go of my agenda. Enter and turn. the end result will be aikido.

Monday, January 4, 2010

my intention for the new year is

to continue my journey as a "getting better uke"! i used to hate to be uke....i was always waiting to be nage. now i love to uke and enjoy Aikido so much more.